Do you remember that song?
I love it from the first time I heard it...
So I decided to name my today's post with it... as much as it is related to my post.
Today I’m not going to tell a story or describe you a
history just from third person. Today I’ll copy you a letter… just a love
letter. I don’t know whose words are these or whose history… I’ll just write it…
from 1st person…even though it is not related to me…:)))))
Love letter which will be given to a pigeon for bringing it
to the right address…
Hi love… how are you? I know you remember me… at least as me…
do you remember today? Just 3 innocent years ago we got engaged… how it started?
Do you remember, love? Everything began with just one random request to my fb
profile… It was cold winter evening when I checked my profile and saw new
friend request. And till today I cannot understand how I accepted you, as a
person who avoids seeing unknown people in her list… may be it was just fortune…
and you wrote me… I was angry and I talked to you very badly… you just smiled
to my disgusting answers. I turned up my nose and I don’t know why… may be you
were handsome… and I didn’t want to show you that I liked your photos from
first sight… I tried to hide my thoughts… Months passed… we were talking every
week. And each time you asked me why I’m so rude… you were living in another
county which was so far from my place… I was jealous… jealous to the person who
I haven’t ever seen… after 3 months you came and wanted to see me… I rejected…
in my heart I prayed thousand times “ask one more time”. You asked not one time
but may be hundred times… But I again ejected. And I don’t know why… I was
afraid of falling love. You went back… months again passed. You again came… but I didn’t reject again… I went
to see you… I remember that little café. You ordered a blueberry cheesecake and
said you don’t like desserts. I ordered chocolate cake. But do you know I even don’t
remember the taste. I remember you. Detailed… I remember your checked greenish
shirt, I remember your blue jacket and your rubbed jeans… I remember your eyes
which I don’t want to discuss. Im still jealous to you. They are the cutest thing I’ve ever seen. You
were tall which I didn’t expect. I don’t remember what I talked but I know it
was stupid stuff. But you liked me… you loved me… as you said after few months…
we became couple… I don’t know how…we
started to date during your 1 week vacation. And you went back to your damn
Paris… i hated that city and I still hate… it hides my love… it took from me my
biggest love… 6 months passed and you
just said you want to know my family… I was the happiest girl in the whole
world…we got engaged after 3 months… I remember my beautiful Tiffany and Co
ring … we were happy… so happy… we were
dreamed about our future life… we even named our future children… we traveled
around the world together in our thoughts… we had little but cozy house… in our
dreams… and just 1 year after it you
helped me and came to your city for a year… the first 3 months were our heaven.
We did everything together , do you remember? We went to concerts, dance halls,
clubs, bars together. We drank together and were drunk together… we danced till
the morning together… we kissed each
other during hours… and sometimes we just slept by hugging each other in the
bench somewhere in Paris… we were in love… we lived love… we were thirsty to
love and finally we found it… your friends started to hate me because I stole
you from them… you went everywhere just with me… do you remember we won the
nomination of the cutest couple in the club? Yes, love, we were the cutest
couple… and who put the evil eyes upon us? What happened? 3 months after it…after
a little fight i threw my ring and you said before it “everything will be gonna
finish if you will do it”. I didn’t believe on you… I did it… and you did what
you said… yes it was finished… I couldn’t breathe… you also… but we could not
come back…just after 1 month you ran after me… I showed you coyness. You didn’t
understand and thought I don’t want you back. Were you fool, love? May be you
were not my first love, but you were my biggest love… You tried to fix
everything after 1 month but I did the mistake of my life and said you I’m not
single anymore. You were broken… I saw it in your eyes. And at that time I felt
victory… because some envious people said to me you are trying to be acquainted
with some girls… I hated to you… I could not believe you can forget me for this
short period… but these people just lied to me… now I hate myself… how I could
not believe to the person whom I loved? And just one month passed… I phoned you
by crying and you just asked where I am… I just hugged you… you fed me that day…
you stood near to me when I slept during the night… yes you were with me again.
And again I felt myself safe… yes your arms were the safest place in the whole
world. we started to date again…everything started one more time…but nothing
else come back… im not talking about love… It was not gone, so it wasn’t come
back… You understood im just a stupid, non-adequate, boaster girl… and I wanted
you back you didn’t come back... I knew you loved me but your heart was broken…
we again were together all day… but like two best friends… I even wasn’t angry
to you… I understood you…i remember our last date in Paris. I was crying… and I
saw just one single tear in your eye… I smiled… yes you love me… you still love
me… then I left that city… you couldn’t stand without me even 2 months… you came…
and the first person you wanted to see was me… we again went to our first date
place… we were just two friends…
Love, I miss you… I miss you more than everything… come back, my fortune… I cannot love anyone
as much as you… I cannot feel anyone as much as you… I remember even your
breath… 56-59 times during 1 minute do you know? I miss the heat of your hands…
when you hold my hands…when you warmed my hands… I miss your arms… when I was
in depression…when I was worried…when I was cried…when I was happy…when I was
smiling…when I wanted to kiss you... I miss your kisses… innocent, soft,
romantic, beautiful, long lasted… I miss your heart beating…when you hugged me…
as my head was standing in the same level with your heart….i miss your smell…
your tom ford perfume… it was so native to me…. I bought it to me…I scent it to
my pillow everyday… for just feeling you next to me… love, do you know I learned
to cook your all favorite food… you will not eat anymore salty food for just not hurting me… I ll be perfect for
you I promise…
Just come back, love! I cannot without you! I just cannot…
there is no meaning of anything without you…
I love you… I love you a lot…
