A goodnight story

She looked at her watch. It was 3:30... and as other nights during the last month she again could not sleep. She came near her window and looked around. There was a silent street which was so unusual for noisy and happy Paris. It was like even Paris did not have any words to her. Tomorrow is 3rd of November and she will leave this city may be for good. She lit a cigarette and tried to remember her last 2 years in this city. She was so innocent when she came here. The life was completely different ... She had great hopes... She saw herself in different stage. And after two years today is the day when she is giving a report to herself...She has good and bad memories. May be bad memories are more... even though she does not want to leave the city of love... She will always remember little cafes of this colorful city... The parks, streets, beautiful places...Eiffel...Louvre..Montmartre...River Seine... the places which cleared her all mind when she was depressed or sad... She is leaving one of the most beautiful cities in the world... She is leaving Notre-Dame de Paris... where she prayed... prayed thousand times...She believed in mystery of this place...She believed here God hears her well... and now she is leaving... leaving her soul thirsty and hungry... What she felt during 2 ys? Nobody knows except her... She saw so many people... She saw so many faces... She saw beautiful masks above the demon souls... She understood that she cannot rely on anybody. If she falls, she has only own hands to help her... and the main reason of her mood... may be everything could be different...if only...

if only she didn't find her love here... she was sure he was not her first love... but he was the most loved one...he was the only one... he was the most valuable one... she met him here... she loved him here... the streets of Paris are witnesses of her love... of her happiness and her tears... she just loved him... as a stupid school girl... she loved him without any expectation... she loved him without saying it... she loved him with all her heart... she hid her love near him... but if he looked to her eyes...attentively...just one time.. she was ready to give him her life...she could leave everything and run with him even to other planets... she loved his touches, she loved his kisses...she wanted him to be the only one till the end of life... but ... but tomorrow she is leaving the city... and she is leaving her life... her whole life... she is leaving him... she will be back to her place tomorrow... and she has to bury everything to her heart... she has to bury the hugest love of her... she has to bury herself alive...

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