Monday, July 28, 2014

My 3 L's

Last days I started to think about a recipe of happiness. Oh what is happiness? Is it the same for everyone? No, definitely, no. However, everybody wants to be happy. I remember a short story by my favorite John Lennon which became so popular:
When I was 5 years old, my mother always told me that happiness was the key to life. When I went to school, they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I wrote down ‘happy’. They told me I didn’t understand the assignment, and I told them they didn’t understand life.

Yes, life is about being happy. For everyone the way to his/her own happiness is different. But without exception everybody wants to be happy. Even if we happy, we find new ways for being more happy. Our jug of happiness is not limited. We achieve one step, we want to the next one... May be sometimes it makes us feel unhappy. For me, we should not make life complicated.  We have to be happy with little but with big morally meaning things. IMHO. 

For me the recipe of happiness is consist of 3 letters... 3 Ls... 

LIVE, LOVE AND LAUGH! 

Every day, every hour, every minute!


Photo by me, Kensington Gardens/ 2013

Friday, July 11, 2014

Говорят, плохая привычка опаздывать. Особенно если в чью-то жизнь. Особенно если насовсем...

Не опаздывайте...По идее это банальное предложение. Не несущее в себе особого значения. Не опаздывайте. Но если вдуматься, то это слово имеет очень глубокий смысл. Из-за малейшего опоздания мы можем потерять многое. К примеру, если мы опаздываем на вступительные экзамены, то мы теряем как минимум год жизни. Если мы опаздываем на работу, то рискуем потерять её.  Таких примеров в повседневной жизни очень много. Но сегодня я не буду говорить о простом опоздании. Есть более весомые. Для того чтобы встретиться с кем-либо, будешь откладывать встречу, и может наступить день, когда этого человека не станет. Потому что,  жизнь такова, ты не знаешь что будеть через минуту. Старайтесь не упускать ни минуты проведенных с близкими. Ты можешь любить кого-то очень сильно, но не можешь ему в этом признаться. Будешь ждать подходящего момента.  Пока ты ждешь его, время не останавливается, течет своим чередом. Ты будешь строить планы,мечтать,он не будеть знать,в итоге рядом с твоим любимым будет человек, который сумел, который опередил тебя. Если хочешь извиниться перед кем-то, откладывая это на потом, в один день ты поймешь что для этого уже слишком поздно. И будешь лишь в этом ты обвинять только себя. Старайтесь не опаздывать. В жизни этого делать нельзя ни в чем. Поскольку каждый свой возраст вы проживаете только раз. Вы больше не будете такими,какими вы сейчас являетесь. Не скрывайте своих чувств. Не скрывайте своих мыслей. Вовремя признавайте совершенные вами ошибки. Успевайте сказать любимым о том, как их любите. Не надо привязываться к гордости. Она не сотрет ваших слез, пролитых на подушку, но когда внутри все заледенеет то любовь будет вас согревать. Любите, любите много от души и не скрывайте этого даже сейчас читая это подойдите к любимым,  скажите "я тебя люблю" поцеловав при этом в щеку. Этими любимыми могут быть ваши родители, братья и сестры, друзья и вторая половинка. Не стесняйтесь сказать люблю, тут нечего стыдиться. Любовь это рычаг жизни. Любите и не молчите об этом.



p.s. the photo is from my personal collection.

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Inside my heart is breaking and my make-up may be flaking...

...But my smile still stays on...

14th of April, 2012, 9:00 am. She woke up with the annoying voice of alarm. She looked at her phone and suddenly remembered that many years ago Titanic sank in this day. She surprised to herself related to this fact. Anyways... It was her 3rd day in BudaPest. She stayed in beautiful luxury hotel on Pest part of the city. Next to her there was a huge shopping center. She planed to go to excursion and then to do shopping today. So she had breakfast and went out. The weather was hot, so she wore her boyfriend jeans and just simple reason t-shirt. She was beautiful with any exaggerating. So with her simple look she was fascinating. The excursion was interesting. They went to Buda Part of the city and had great time here. She saw Fishermen's Bastion, Buda Castle and other places of interest nearby. Then she went to Matthias Church and as a person who believed God a lot she stayed a little bit long here and prayed. She believed in  God...even she was not christian she believed the religion is love and God hears her from everywhere. The day started good-she thought. She took a lot of pictures and felt satisfied. When they were back from tour it was 4 pm. So she decided not to lose time and went to that shopping center which located near to her. After 4 hours of shopping, she finally felt that she is terrible tired and went to Costa Coffee. After few minutes she saw incessant look pointed to her. In the table next to her she saw a guy, he was smiling to her. As she was deadly tired she even cannot give him smile for an answer. However, the guy was persistent and he stood up from his place, came to her table. He just asked where is she from. She answered unwillingly. He saw she is not in her mood, he just wrote his number to a little paper and gave her. When she looked to him with the question in her eyes, he just said if she wants somebody to show her city she can call. Of course she didn't even remember about him during 2 days. After 2 days, it seemed she saw all city and got bored, she remembered him and write him short message with the postcode of her hotel and with her name. He answered immediately and said he would come after 3 hours. She again was charming with her simple beauty. He came with flowers in his hand. She was shocked, they were peonies. The most lovely flowers of her...and first time she looked at him. He was handsome... He was too much handsome. Why she didn`t pay attention on it... So finally they went out from hotel. He brought her to the little river cruise with musicians. It was late evening and the weather was getting darker and darker. She felt cold, he gave his jacket her. After having great time, he brought her back to hotel. They promised meet again tomorrow. She felt she is getting used to him. Oh that feeling... She is afraid of it more than any love any hurt... what about him? for him there was a love from first sight. She left 5 days and during that 5 days they were together all days long...even nights... there were best times for both of them... the times with full of love, full of feeling, full of passion. The last day they even didn`t go out from their number. They just hugged one another during hours... They know this love cannot be finished only by this trip. No they will meet. They will have plans for future. They will be happy together for good as in fairy tales. They dreamed together a lot... He hugged her stronger and stronger, it seemed he didn`t let her go to anywhere. They cried...cried together. He kissed even her tears. Pure tears. And they tried to enjoy the last minutes of being together...Next day, our sleepless girl went back to her native land. She felt an unusual emptiness inside of her. Her native land came to her as a place with strange people. She was looking for dear eyes which are the most native eyes in the world. No, No, No he is not here. Even they talked by Skype she missed him a lot. From day to day...  He also missed her. Sometimes he sent flowers and chocolates to her. Sometimes he made some little surprises. However, nothing can replace the breathe of your love next to you. Months are flied and after 3 months he came to her. Of course, she was happy... They were happy... However, she hid her relationship from her family, as she was sure it is not acceptable, he was from another religion and nation. So they became more careful. She didn`t go to university during 10 days and spent all her time till the night with him. And the time again came.. It is time to say Goodbye... Again... He was her sweetest Hi and hardest Good Bye.  1 year passed, they met maximum 3 times in a year. Once she again went to BudaPest for a month and they spent awesome time..more beautiful than any Honey Moon. Finally, they decided to marry... She does not know how to explain the situation to her family. As they cannot accept it...She pulled herself together and acknowledged her love.. Nobody accepted... None of them... And their decision was decisive... He came to her country... He tried meet with her family.. Talk to him... But no solution. Two people from different nation and religion cannot marry... They just said "Forget everything" like a random nightmare during sleep. They persisted.. But nothing... She didn`t it anything during long days... No result... She tried to run away with him but couldn`t. She was living in prison. As she was weak also in character, she could not stand too much. She started with little drugs... and day after day she became addicted... He didn`t know about it... He saw she is getting gloomy and rude every day... He couldn`t understand.... He thought it is just depression. But he didn`t have any suspicion about her love. He was sure she loves him more than everything in her life... She disappeared sometimes for few days... And finally he couldn`t endure and came to her country. He found her... He saw she is not the same person... Only her eyes are the same... He was angry to her ... But he just could hug her and cry... And wanted from her only one promise about not doing it one more time... He promised to himself that if she stops it, he will disappear from her life forever. He just wanted her to be alive and healthy. She couldn`t... It was too late. She couldn`t without it... Her family was distraught with grief.. They wanted him to help her... Ofcourse, he forgived them..The only wish of him was to see her as before... She was with him all day ... he was near to him... he didn`t leave her alone even for a minute... Just one day he slept... She stood and took the dose.. And it was not normal dose.. it was overdose.. He found her dead next to him... Her previous face was back... She was beautiful with the smile in her face.. He couldn`t stand to this scene.. He just could shout... Shout wildly.. widely... His little girl is dead.. The girl with whom he constructed future plans... The girl who gave him the best moments of his life... The girl who helped his heart hit... The girl who became his whole world... and now she passed away... He could not stand...After 3 hours Ambulance came.. Her family also... They brought their daughter and the guy was taken to madhouse.. As he lost his mind... But the last wish of him was to send peonies to her grave everyday from his card account... 





                       

Monday, June 30, 2014

Can human be an angel?

There was a shining beautiful morning in her favorite city. In  the city of love and beauty... yes, the next destination of my story is again magnificent Paris. She was living in her little flat in the Avenue Franklin Roosvelt. That day she woke up at 10 am and as it was Saturday, she decided to enjoy the beautiful weather in her lovely city. She was so optimistic and full of life. It seemed she felt something in the deepest part of her heart. She knew God has plan for her and for her life. So she prepared well. She wore her Valentino lace dress with beautiful Louboutin pumps and took her beautiful Chanel Boy bag. Finally, she scented her favorite perfume - Chanel Chance. Yes she was too much chic for just a walk. However, she believed in her feelings. She was sure today something is going to happen. She took a taxi and went to 

Parc Monceau. The weather was great here. She heard happy smiles of children, she felt best feeling of people, she saw romantic mood of couples and she was full of life. She sat and started to look around. She was impatient : something has to happen today! And at that moment she saw a man 20-30 metres from her. Oh My God...-she just could whisper. She saw these eyes first time in her life. She can drown in them during the rest of her life...The kindest look in the world... He was ideal... He has beautiful brown eyes with perfect eye-browns. They fit perfect with his sharp nose and reddish lips. He was tall with good body shape. Is it love from first sight? - she thought... for a minute she froze in her place... He cannot be a normal man... No, normal man cannot be such perfect. He is an angel! It felt like the character of this man was written in his face. It was the most well-wishing face in the whole world... Finally, she came to herself after he touched her with the question "Vous allez bien, madame?" , which means "Are you ok, lady?" . She lost herself and could say only one word, "Yes". He smiled at her and said that he asked the way to Starbucks from her for 5 times and she was numbed. She felt ashamed. But he was smiling and it helped her to be better. They started to talk... They went to cafe, drank a glass of red wine and started enjoy the day together. She could not remember the most beautiful day as this in her life. She was in love.. Also him... At the end of the day they gave their numbers to each other and each one went their home. She could not sleep that night. Oh Thanks God for such a nice present... He was her dream man... What happened to him? He also loved her... She was innocent and pure person without any bad effect of life. She was like a little girl... She could be happy with little things... With colorful candies, with big baloons and so on. The next day he called her and invited to the Notre Dame de Paris. He wanted her to accompany him during the pray time. They went together... They prayed to their God and both of them wanted from God the same thing: let this moment last forever... After praying they went out and started to walk in the beautiful streets of the most romantic city. The days lasted ... She acknowledged her love to him as she could not save it in her heart anymore. He smiled and kissed her for the first time, so he just  proved his love with emotion. It was the sweetest kiss in the world. She felt the dearest lips on her owns. They cannot stop kissing. The kiss was pure... it was simple.. it was without any burning passion... It was just proof of pure love. They did not wait anything from each another. They just lived their present time... The love was nice the love was beautiful... And it was getting bigger from day to day. Their hugs became stronger everyday. Sometimes they just spent nights by just hugging each other. It was perfect, if... if only there was one problem. He was getting lost sometimes. For day, sometimes for a week and etc. He could not explain. She did not excepted any explanation also... As she relied on him absolutely. But she was thinking may be he has any problem. He never talked about his life, his activities and work... One day she could not endure. And when he went to his house, she decided to follow him. He went far and far... finally, came into the middle of little field and opened his hands wide. She was shocked, what is it? What is he doing here ... it is the place far from the civilization.  And she lost consciousness when she saw his disappearance. He just went out of sight in front of her eyes. He went to the sky... She slept at her place and saw a dream. He came to her with tears in his eyes... And asked her question "Why you followed me, the Queen of My Life?" , " Why you did it?"... As you know my secret, i cannot come back to your real life anymore... It is not allowed to me... I cannot do it... I cannot touch you anymore.. I cannot make you happy anymore... I was an angel who followed you during long years and who finally got permission from God... I loved you during long time... I guarded you from the mistakes... I protected you from bad incidents... And finally, i decided to be next to you and become a guardian angel-human for you. However, from today I cannot do it. God called me back and i cannot come to you anymore.. Except your dreams... You will see me only when you sleep. Our love will last in dream world". She woke up with tears in her eyes... And from that time, she lives in her dreams... She wants forever sleep from God every single day...

Tuesday, December 24, 2013

A night story... by SHE again...

She was sitting in her favorite sofa in that dark night... The music was playing in low volume.... And She again started to think... She thought her feelings are the most painful and stupid ones in this world. 

What happened? Yes... happened the worst. She was in love with her best friend. She loved him with all her heart. How did it happen? She did not remember. Because when she opened her eyes to life, it has already existed. 

Now she has just few questions...

Do you know what is love? What is no response love?

You know what is to love the person who is the closest in your life? 

Do you know the situation in which you cannot just escape? You cannot escape even from yourself. Because your life is full... Full of this person. In every side of your life, there is HIM! 
Do you know what is to love your best friend who cannot even imagine that you love him? The person who can come to you and talk to you about his love stories. The person who periodically wants advice from you. And with all your efforts you just curb your feelings with tears in your eyes and lie. You just want to shout : Don't speak!!! Don't speak!!! Don't speak because it hurts... But you cannot... You are just friends.. Close friends... You need each other ... just as a friend... as a good friend... It lasts years... and the most painful feeling is when you are jealous... jealous of person who is not yours. and will never be forever!!!

You remember your days with him... You remember dates...the dates which he cannot even remember approximately... but you can say even the exact time. you remember the places where you laughed and cried together. the places where you fought... you remember with smile the places where you were confused as a romantic couple... you were closer more than every couple. you know each other better than any lovers. but you are not couple... you do not have any romantic relationship... you are just friends. you have to remember it every time... every minute... 

And
Finally, 

You just imagine your own hell in this world..After few years, you will be again friends.. with different families who will have to be friends as well...

Monday, December 16, 2013

Another good night story by SHE

She... Who is She? 26 years old girl... who is still so young in her heart. She cannot believe ... She passed quarter of a century... What did she leave after her? Still thinking... She thinks her life is so empty and nothing to remember.. She could spend her time more effectively... But was it really like this? No... She was not unsuccessful person... In her 26 years, she was a brilliant person with brilliant heart and brain. She has lovely job, she loves her life, it seems she does not have any reason to be sad. But what is missed? May be love? During her life, she loved and of course was loved. And what happened? She loved twice and in both cases she was cheated. Her heart was broken... And now... What is gonna happen in the future? She is afraid... Afraid of loving ... Afraid of cheating.. Afraid of not to be appreciated ... Afraid to be left alone... why? why she is always hurt? What is she doing wrong? She gives all her heart... She is not acting...She never lies... 
The only reason... She is not older enough in her heart.. To understand that you have to be a good actress in this life... You have to have fake smiles...and fake feelings...




Friday, November 29, 2013

I`m a visitor in a real house of a fictional character - Sherlock Holmes...

Hi! Today we are going to visit one of the interesting museums in London! It is Sherlock Holmes Museum. Amazing, isn't it? 

Lets begin!

This museum is situated in the center of London, approximately 150-180 meters from Baker Street Station.  Therefore, the address for here is 221 Baker Str. 


In front of the building, there is always queue. The density of population in this queue depends on time, seasons and other reasons. 


Next to the main entrance of museum, you are able to see a door to the museum shop. There are a lot of souvenirs related to a well-known detective.
Right here, the tickets for museum are also sold. Unlike to other famous museums in London, it is not free of charge and the ticket costs £6.







Right here, the tickets for museum are also sold. Unlike to other famous museums in London, it is not free of charge and the ticket costs £6.

This is a ticket.

So after buying ticket, you take a place in the queue. The museum is four-storeyed brick-red building with white windows.  
And here we are! We entered the building.  As in English houses this floor is not considered as 1st one, it is a ground floor. Even in the entrance, you can feel the spirit of old house and warmth here. The museum has been designed very well, as it feels like you are really in the house with detective and right now he will sit near of you with a cup of coffee in his hand.
All right… In the both sides of entrance, you can see old mirror and frames with photos. The corridor is quite narrow and at the end of it, there are 17 squeaking wooden stairs which assist to go up.


Now, we are in the first floor. There are two rooms here. In the on side, there is a small bedroom of Sherlock Holmes.  Here, you can see a bed and personal belongings of the detective on it. Instead of it, you can see wardrobe, mirror and a lot of photos on the wall.



The other room in this floor is called a seating room with two windows in which Holmes and Watson spent their free time.  There are sofas, fire-place, a table with dinner-set and other objects. In this part, you can sit on the sofa and feel yourself like a detective with his smocking pipe and hat. 




In other floor, there is a bedroom of Watson. This room is simpler.





In the same floor, you can see the room of Mrs.Hudson.  It is a small light room with different objects from famous cases.






And finally in the last floor, there are wax figures. 
This is Mr. Jabez Wilson from the case "The Red-Headed League". 
An innocent man is unwittingly deceived into helping a robbery.




Dr.Roylott from The Adventure of the Speckled Band. 


The Adventure of Charles Augustus Milverton...


 The disappearance of Lady Frances Carfax. Here we can see Sherlock Holmes and Dr.Watson as well.


A dog from the case "The Hound of Baskervilles"


Finally, the roof... Here is toilet and some old things.


And here my story is finished! :) See you in other my posts!

P.S. Me or Dr.Watson? 


P.S.S. All photos are mine.